Date:	2007-10-16 13:48
Subject:	its my Birthdayyy =]]
Security:	Public
Mood:	silly
Music:	some mix cd jams

yepp.
im finally 19.
i cant belive it.
its better than being 18 already =]
im in school, which is wicked sweet.
some guy on the train up, gave me 20 beautiful Roses =]
i didnt get to see any of my family at all todayy.
it sucks being in school (college)
but i get to take the T home at like 7 tonight.
atleast i get to see my parents and my boyfriend.
thats all that matters =]
i miss my friends though.
i guess things just happen for a reason.
its just the way life is. either you take it or leave it.
but, im in a GREAT mood.
everything feels so right.
and im finally happy for once in my life.
ohh && the fact that im IN Lovee
hahaa.
♥mel

yeah so matt wanted me to put this up.
this was the fourth of julyy.
fun times. i miss youu =[
♥Mel

Date:	2007-10-04 17:24
Subject:	its been busyy
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	the used- saving grace.

im back =]]
i needed a longgg ass break.
so much things have happened.
i graduated in june =]]
pretty sweet.
im starting college in Boston.
this week. im reallly pumped =]
i finally met the boy of my dreams.
hes simply irrestible.
hes like me in many ways.
i think im falling in love.
i really need it.
of all this guy drama, im surprised i can go nice about this.
yeah so i thought my best friend kathie, was a real friend to me,
&& which turns out she hacked into my myspace and deleted all my shit.
all of my friends.
and a VERY important one to me.
my best friend Brittany, who died in a car accident last july.
ill NEVER get her back. i just cant beileve someone did that.
thats cruel. i seriously hate kathie.
im not done though.
idk.
i have more things to write about.
but i have to start class so ill write back later.
love.
♥mel xoxoxo

yeah so ive made up my mind.
my prom date is matt.
my best friend since 8th grade.
i want my boyfriend to go with me
but i cant have him go because he needed to attend my school.
which is really

Date:	2005-10-29 12:44
Subject:	im backkkk
Security:	Public
Mood:	loved
Music:	death cab for cutie "soul on body"

so......
school sux.
my birthday is in 3 days im pumped.
alot of people will be commin.
im excited. im gettin a new cell phone from my love♥
i am happy. i wont lose it again.. haha
im goin to boston in another week.
my friend from Iraq wrote me a 5 page letter its sad.
she almost died.
i feel shocked.
school is really tough for me. cuz i havta make up everything.
from fuckin 9th grade. stupid me never showed up every day for school
and i have to sit in summer school all pissed of while my friend(s) are goin to NYC for a cd release party.
i had to decline. whatever.
ughh i cant drop out of school now. i want to but i need my diploma and im goin to NYU in NYC. so yea.
im gettin my progress report again 2morrow. every like.. what 2 weeks we get them?
i have 1A and the rest straight B's im not happy. im improving.. ughhh
i want a car. im gettin my license this week. cant wait. i just need a new job again....
i am applying to many.
i hate the rain it makes me cold. and for gym we cant go outside but i love runnnin around with the boys in gym its like a mad house hahah
well i gotta go and finish hw.
ill update later on.
♥

MELISSA♥

Date:	2005-10-07 16:05
Subject:	finally... depression hits me.. =0(
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	you give love a bad name *bon jovi*

ok so, me and brandon broke up after whut. 14 days goin out?
hes a real dick. i always let guys walk all over me..i hate it.
but im dating again lol. and this time its special... so yea..
A.B. um hes my best best friend and he told me that he likes me.
and i was like woah!
but like.. idk..
um yea.. i am goin to drop out of school
i got my mcas back, i got an advanced english meaning i fuckin passed English
but i failed the math part cuz i rushed and forgot 10 questions lol.... um.. yea..
so im fuckin pissed. im such a failier..
i mean everything i do i fail fail fail.
i fail at life, boyfriends, friends.
i mean im not perfect. and i damn well wish i was.,
i dont enjoy life anymore.
no one.
i cant suffer like this.
anyways off that subject
um.. i will be gettin my progress report.. i have all straight B's im happy... i guess.
i just want school to be over with.
7 hours everyday suffer!
i mean im complaing but who doesnt?
i mean idk.
im susposed to be a senior this year..
but the way my birthday is. ughhh
blah..
my birthday is Next Sunday. im happy.
im goin to have the biggest bash everr.
lots and lots of ppl prolly about.. near 115-120 ppl lol?
idk bigger than any sweet 16 party LOL.
um i dont kno whut i want for my birthday....
i wished for atleast to get a bf for my last year birthday and i got asked out at 9:30 am lol.
i was happy.
but now things are commin back like i dont give a fuck attitude and i get to do whut i want.
whatever. my moms behind me but my dad isnt. of course.
but like.. idk anymore
i cant go to the malls anymore cuz i have an overnight job. its near marshfield/pembroke. its a wood place and all that 15 dollars an hour.
i mean.. i need money sooo bad. i hate not eating dinner for 5 days now.
my parents dont have any money cuz of the frigen weddin took it all. so yea..
im gettin skinnier and i love it.
but anyways i gutta be at my job in.. 25 minutes i love all my friends
and u guys kno that.
and i love you my love♥

Drama queen

Melissa♥

Date:	2005-10-01 23:10
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	i swear all in one

hey you all..
yea um.. i cant get on myspace which blows..
im at my friends house so i think its not workin lol...
yea i like being away i guess.
im commin back on monday night. woo!
um..
im dating this kid brandon<3 im soo happy.
i love him alot! hes so figen F.I.N.E lol
but yea not much is going on that i cant go to my prom(s)
idk it doesnt bother me.
but yea i seem happy and life is good
but theres a part of me that i miss
and it sucks.
but hey love hurts
well my friend wants to go down to brockton to smoke and fuck lol
so ill update later on. hopefully i can go on myspace.
bye
loveyouall<33

♥Melissa

Date:	2005-09-30 17:48
Subject:	hey guys,
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	i caught fire by The Used

hey everyone.
i havent been on here for awhile.
myspace is my so called life.
um yea im really fuckin pissed now.
my school is tellin me things that i am not.
i think i might drop out.
i can imagine whut my mcas is gonna be like.
even though i have summer school this year so idk.
im goin to martha's vineyard in 20 mins to see my baby play football.
go PEMBROKE TITANS. and my mom loves him alot.
i think its funny.?
um.. not much happend
i cant go to junior prom or homecoming(for pembroke)
cuz idk. teachers are fucked. whatever.
im out in a year.
thank god.
idk anymore.
life is happy for me right now.
i found someone i like. he likes me. theres no stop to that.
well im out i gotta get ready. ill be back on sunday.. so hmm idk?
i loveyou all who stand by me through hard times.
thank youu!
♥ melissa xo

Date:	2005-09-14 18:09
Subject:	so.
Security:	Public
Mood:	restless
Music:	hearts&scars - senses fail song soundtrack

hey...
whats up? n2mhjc.
im very bored and sick of myspace so im gettin away with this first.
omg school sucked today. my friend txtd me on the bus and told me shit i didnt wanna hear. and she was bitchin at me cuz she sed i ruin life and i started going all bi-polar on here and started swearing then this girl cassy started shit with me so i went over to the one seater on my bus and i started punching her and i just flipped out. so im not aloud on my bus for 2 weeks. and i cant ride my grammas bus so i pointless screwed. i cut class anyways so ill be late commin to school. who cares anyways?
yesterday after school a whole bunch of people i kno and i smoked weed and drank for a little bit.
um i have a new date for my moms weddin his name is jake♥ and i love him a whole bunch.
hes my BEST guy friend. im happy.
oh yea! my new last name is Smith.
i went to court and my dad adopted me once again.. so im happy.
nogler is WAY GONE haha...
yea im going to Nevada in Nomember.
i just relized that my crush will never ask me out. so im wasting half of my life wondering about him.
his friends are awesome the best!! and like.. he just doesnt kno whut to do. he knows i like him but somehow idk.
i have new pics up on myspace WOOT.
um.. i stopped being annoying and i started to relize whut i lost??? whatever.
i lost 21 pounds in 2 days. i am very happy.
my parents weddin is in 2 days.\
the rehearsel is friday night and its gonna be big.
im going this week to pin cushion. im wicked pumped.
i cant tell whut im gettin done but its gonna be good.
but yea i gotta go and finish my hw.
ill update later.

love you all<3

♥ xxx

Date:	2005-09-10 23:54
Subject:	hear me out.
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	bloody romance - senses fail♥

hey everyone!!!!
im back on here again.. myspace is boring. lol. it gets old.
im worried about alot of things.
i have so much crud on my plate right now.
i might be losing yet.. another friend im tryin to help her out and all my advice is gettin wasted away.
i thought i was a heavy drinker. i guess not.
ive been sober for almost a month now. drinkin in stupid. i hate it.
and other substances. um...
i have new pics up on myspace im wicked thrilled i finally figured it out. cuz my comp is an imac so things work differently.
um.. im kinda in a sad mood. ive been for awhile. im hurt by words that were spoken to me.
i just cant eat or sleep or even talk.
i get shaky when i read that comment again.
idk. he knows i dont like him like that way anymore.
i ment another guy but things got twisted. im in the bad i guess.
i want a bf but i keep having them then we break up lol. i just cant find the right person.
i did then it ended just like that.
he never knew whut i felt inside. i was afraid of the next step. ive been hurt badly. and i didnt wanna get hurt again.
i mean i never had so much fun in my life.
i loved it. the reason y i ended it was cuz i didnt want him to figure me out. and leave me right when i found love.
idk i need to speak my heart out since no one wants to hear me out.
all my friends are tellin me things are fine. they are wrong. i kno whut i feel.
i belive that im gonna be hurt by this for awhile.
i just think thing are wrong with me that im not perfect.
whut am i?
ugly?
fat?
annoying?
to self concesious?
not right?
gross?
and more....
i try everyday to be perfect, not eat, excerise, drink water, cry lol,
and nuthin works, i havent smiled since august. and all my friends think im crazy LOL.
they dont kno me.
no one does.
it bothers me that someone so cool can just turn in a matter of seconds and i didnt do anything.
and i get bitched at. idk..
well im gonna go to bed and call my friend.....
ill writw back soo<3
comment my new pics<3 its the only thing that makes me happy LOL

im still upset about that UGH!!!

xxx


♥ melissa<3

Date:	2005-08-18 17:50
Subject:	my week
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	"XO" by fall out boy

hey everyone.
im quite upset. and i dont kno whuts up.. cuz i have so much frigen shit buggin me that i cant think right.
i think ive made the biggest mistake of my life. and i will regret it.
i didnt breakup with my bf we are just takin time to be "best friends" lol
i just cant take being a relationship cuz i got hurt by my ex and i just cant let myself fall into that.
ill be done with life. period.
and i try very hard.
theres 2 things that is keepin me apart from this.
and i really love them. i mean like a whole lot.
and i jsut cant have my bf suffer. cuz its not right.
i feel really bad.
anyways... tu make me happy ill tell u about warped tour and how it frigen KICKED ASS! i got to see Senses fail, fallOutBoy, the Offspring♥, story of the year. MCR, the briefs(they are very good.) um.... and other bands. i was happy! i went with my bf and his/my friends. which was awesome.
ill never forget that day. it was so much frigen fun. i got an autograph cuz the lead singer was HOT lol. but idk....
i keep thinkin that i hurt the ppl i most care about. and I DONT wanna do this.
part of me does the part no.this kid will never like me even tho IM HIS TYPE!
he likes "hot girls" with tons of makeup on im HOT! lol.
whatever.
im really sad. i think i need to do some smokin and drinkin to cool my self off. im in love. love hurts. love sucks. i hate love sometimes.
i just cant see myself loveing sumone who is with me that i feel bad about.
and this kid i kno is very caring, gorgeous. and more. he rocks out hard lol.
im the girl he wants.
but ill never have the boy i want.
i love it.id rather be miserable then being all by myself.
well im out cuz i wrote alot and im gunna go smoke some pot ill update when i feel like it.
later everyone<3
i love you all ♥
&& my bf<3 im sorry...

♥ melissa

Date:	2005-06-27 17:09
Subject:	again...
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	"pretty in punk" by. fall out boy

uh, finally.... summer is here and now no more school and finally can work on gettin myself in thin shape.
all this summer im workin morning and night which is gunna give me like.. 25 hours. i need it that bad.
um... not alot has been goin on.
i am kinda confused about alot of things.... and i dont kno if ill ever be able to think of whut is goin on lol.
ive met this boii who i have my eye on but theres things about him which i dont like. all my other friends are like just go for it but i cant.
its really that hard. but this other kid is commin back in my life and like wont let me be. he lost me b4 of things that i wanted him not to do.
but i really dont kno.
by next week im gunna go and try tu get my license.
then by this week im goin to get my hair done. maybe dyed again. not too bright lol just maybe darker brown or black
with side swept bangs. then ill put up new myspace pics.
um.... i really dont write much in here cuz im always on myspace but maybe ill try more entries in here.

but yea ill keep tabs on things and when i get back from Virginia, sixflags, and water country. and have new pics? i guess...



im endin this now. im really tired im gunna get some rest. ill ttyl


love, Love,
♥ melissa

Date:	2005-05-31 16:04
Subject:	yea
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	because of you - kelly clarkson

yea i am wanted 2 update cuz i do.. um.. i dont like tu update alot so like yea.. and myspace is different cuz its cooler.....

hmmm im bored so im gonna go now.. yea um yea bye


iiTs' really amazinG' when tw0
strangers become the best .oF
friends but its really sad when
the best of F R ii E N D S
b`come ;; two [ strangers ]

^ my friend gave this tu me.. sure. its ok.. well shes gay and and scene.


kk im out peace..





melissa cakes.. lol <3

Date:	2005-05-12 13:21
Subject:	hmmm
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	"nothing else matters" by metallica

A LITTLE ABOUT YOU:
sign: Libra
age: 16
sex: female
school: pembroke High
glasses/contacts: neither
braces: no
tall/short: tall
do you like ketchup: yes
do you like mustard: yep
do you like mayonnaise: kinda
do you like pickles: yup
do you like boys or girls: boys
do you like pickle relish: i dont think so
do you like chicken: love chicken.
do you like spinach: no
do you like school: not at all
do you like pokemon: no
how often do you talk on the phone: not that often
how often do you surf the web: everyday
how often do you hang out with friends: as much as i possibly can
do you have a bf/gf: yep
have you ever loved anyone: yep
have you ever made-out with someone: i have
how often do you shower: everyday
which group do you hang out with at school: just with friends, my crowd lol
do you get good grades: not lately, but usually
do you always get in trouble: yes
do you get along with your parents: most of the time
are you gonna go to college: yep
who is your best girl friend: Melinda
who is your best boy friend: joseph<333
who do you talk to the most on the phone: kevin, joe, some of my friends,
who do you talk to the most on the net: tim
do you like gold or silver jewelry: silver
have you ever prank called a 1-800 number: nope
what are you most afraid of: getting older, being alone all my life =(
are you weird: sometimes
how long does it take you to get ready for school: 10-15-20 minutes
do you like coffee: sometimes, ice coffee tho =)
what is the longest you have went out with someone: 2 years
do you regret it: nope, and hopefully i never will
WHERE?
do you want to live? california, new york,
is the most fun place to go? beach i guess
do you want to get married? yes
WHAT...
Do you like to do? hang out/eat
friend is always there? melinda,
relative sends you the most money for Christmas? hmmm, my aunt
do you want to be when you grow up? im not sure yet. maybe write stories or travel around the world.
do you want your wife's name to be? a husband maybe.... joe, or kevin, it doesnt matter....
is your favorite sport? football-tom brady<33
HAVE YOU IN THE LAST 24HRS...
Cried? yes 2sn block cuz my friends a bitch and freaked out on me.
gotten in major trouble? yesi called my teacher a bitch and myself one it was funny
cut your hair? nope
ate a meal? yes
hugged someone? yes
kissed someone? no :(
made a new friend? yes =)
lost something? yea my piece of gum :-)
HAVE YOU EVER...
Been so drunk you passed out? yes
gone out in public in your pajamas? yes
had an imaginary friend? no
cried during a chick flick? yes
owned a new kids on the block cd? no
gotten in a car accident? i was very close to being in one
liked someone so much you cried? yes
cussed when your parents were around? yes all the time
made faces in the mirror? yea
spent more than one hour on your hair? nope
watched a scary movie and couldn’t sleep all night? nope
gone caroling? no
MOVIES…
what is the funniest movie you have ever seen? napoleon Dynamite =)
what is the stupidest movie? napoleon Dynamite =)
which movie could you watch over and over? just married, meet the parents/fockers, thirteen
what was the last movie you saw? i saw the ring2
who do you go to the movies with? people that wanna go with me
what movie made you cry the most? the notebook
did you like titanic? yesssssssss.
WOULD YOU EVER...
Jump out of a plane? probably not, no
kiss your best guy friend? if i was going out with him, then yes.
go bungee jumping? no
stay in your room for a whole day? yes
go in the snow without clothes? nope, this is jackass =)
skinny dip? no
drink salt water? ewww
touch road kill? no gross OMG!
smile at your worst enemy? suuure....
go to Reno to get married? no
bring shorts to Minnesota? sure why not
have a make-out party? no. aids.
throw a party without your parents? hahaha yea
go to a foreign country? done it
fly a plane? no way.
WHO.....
If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to? the people who would enjoy my stuff
who is the one person that you could stand spending a straight 24 hours with and not get the slightest bit annoyed with? joseph<333333
if you woke up one morning and noticed that your leg was missing who would be the first person you would call? my mom, then joe and kevin <33
what if you woke up tomorrow and you were someone else completely, who would you be? my worst eniemie
WHAT......
What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up one morning and you were the opposite sex? id scream then go hit on girls
what is the one thing you just have to do before you die? i dont know
what is the thing you care about most in your life? family, friends, food
WHICH ONE......
Winter or summer? summer
The beach or the mountains? beach
pop or punk? punk
rock or rap? rock
new york or l.A.? new york
milk chocolate or dark chocolate? milk
dogs or cats? cats
country or classical? neither
day or night? depends, but usually night
lake or ocean? ocean
waffles or pancakes? waffles
soccer or football? BOTH!
chocolate or vanilla? chocolate
sugar or spice? sugar
RANDOM....
If you could be in any movie as the lead role what movie would it be? i dont know,
if you could design your perfect mate what would he look like and be like? johnny depp/Ashton kutcher
have you ever.....
Fallen in front of someone you thought to be quite good looking? yes
run into a wall? yes
snuck out of the house at night? yea tu smoke lol
laughed so hard that what you were drinking spewed out your nose? yep, it was milk.
started laughing really hard so you just spit out what you had in your mouth cause you couldn't swallow? mhm
swallow a bug? yeah probably
have you ever actually kept a new year's resolution? i dont think so, no
~*~*WOULD YOU EVER*~*~
eat bugs purposely? if there was money involved
commit a crime? not on purpose
change your religion? no im not jewish so im ok lol
lie to your parents? yes.
jump over a waterfall? probably not unless someone fell in
go out at night dressed in something like a black trench coat and sunglasses? if i was a spy, yes
~*~*HAVE YOU EVER*~*~
have your life threatened? yea
stayed up until the morning light talking online? yess
made people give you really weird glances? no..
read a Shakespeare play? yea
talked in your sleep? i dont know, mayeb
what did you say? i said fuck this survey
**LOVE/LIKE**
who do u like: joe and someone im crushin on' lol <33
have you ever kissed them: yes
do you wanna kiss them: right now? sure why not
THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
Something important on your desk: cd player/cds!
When you sleep you wear: my hogs+kissez boxers i got for valentines day and my led zepp shirt <3
If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: a nice car and a huge house and drugs lol jk
Something you don't have a lot of: jeans/ charlston chews left
If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be: mom dad clothesmusicposters,pillow,blanket,radio, and food.
MORALS
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: fuckin boys.
A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally: when i hated someone
A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: i dont know, when im dumb
One person you have killed in your thoughts: theres a few up there
FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend: funny, sense of humor(big time), caring
Who makes you laugh most often: chrissy/joe
A friend who you can tell anything: well i could.....
A friend you can got to for advice: no one at the moment </3 The best piece of advice you had been given: not sure two closest friends: chrissy, melinda The friend who uses most of your energy: chrissy, ERIC! EGO Your 3 best qualities: humor, personality, cool! Your 3 worst qualities: lazy, whiny, tired Describe your Ideal self: im awesome? You are embarassed when: im wrong The greatest physical pain you ever endured: my knee that got fucked up over 6 times =( The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: brokenhearts </3 Moment you are most ashamed of: everything Who/What makes you happy: my music, kurt<3 Who/what makes you sad: my friends being assholes and treating me like shit. EMOTIONS Emotion you hide most: angry The emotion you tend to experience most: happiness. The emotion you are feeling most lately: happiness/excitement for summer You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: nothing When you are angry you need: music/someone to talk to When you are sentimental you need: someone to hug? When you are in love you need: to be with the one im in love with/honesty Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: i dont know, anything that compliments me i guess? this is a dumb and awkward question Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: concieted Two things appealing about people: personality, coolness A personality trait you find appealing: humor Your secret passion: loving my crush knowin he likes another girl better than you </3... What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: always having someone to talk to/cuddling RELATING DO you have a bf/gf if yes who? yes/Joe<3 What do you find sexy about them: humor, crazyness, 6 pack his hot gelled hair and he smokes lol hehe A place where you want to have sex: anywhere but the woods... A strange place where you have had sex: in a pool? movie theatre..... What drives you crazy (in a good way) about this person: the way he acts around me What music is on when you have sex, or is it the tv?: music, nirvana, or the doors, or led zepp Favorite song to have sex to: babe, im gonna leave you lol hahhaha FINALLY If you had more time alone you would: talk to the person i love and find new friends If you had more patience you would: clean my room and clean my car If you had no committments what would you be doing: running away to iceland If you could have one super power what would it be: turn people i hated into 5 billion dollars. If you could start all over....: id fix my mistakes and make all these people like me again. =( im done here. alot to answer but i did it ill write back later or whenever. - &hearts; Mel xo xo

Date:	2005-04-23 08:02
Subject:	it nva ends....
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	led zeppelin " babe, im gunna leave you"

so yea.... things are bad once again.
i was susposed tu go tu S&M's B-day bash i got invited and all that good stuff. and i was gettin ready and i relized that SOME ONE didnt want me tu go so im like ok, then i changed my clothes and went out. i regret that i didnt see them play and i was sad cuz i really like the bands but NO one cares that i do its pathetic and y should i go knowing that a BAND MEMBER hates me and my friends nva mind that but its wrong. it pisses me off. i try tu make ppl like me and all i get in return are ppl who HATE ME. maybe u dont hate me but it feels like it. if u talk tu me more then we'll be fine whatever. but i had a great night anyways. O YEAH.... i needed directions to jerry's house but no one responded back...... hmmmmm....... i think SLG should make a cd that would be sweet. anyways...... but yea wednesday..4/20 was great i hung out with ppl did some bad things lol but yea it was an awesome night.
well i gotta go driving in a half hour so yea.......

Lv.1 cuz u kno u wanna........ ttyl- ♥ mel xoxoxo

Date:	2005-04-01 08:41
Subject:	hey ppl...
Security:	Public
Mood:	disappointed
Music:	"i looked at you" by the Doors!

HEY everyone, yes i havent updated in awhile theres just so many things goin on. and with me workin 3 jobs its hard.. so yea.
everyone is pissed at me and i dont kno why. so yea me and kevin got in a huge fight last night after he drove me tu marshfield and i was susposed tu kick sum girls ass but she was like all in my face and then kevin sed tu me that if i fight her were done and that ment for me not tu do it.
i really wanted tu tho. o well
so yea um....... me, kevin, adam, tyler, joey, joe T. mark, mikey were all hangin by the marshfield skatepark talkin and like it was weird and then i saw that girl i wanted tu fight but i couldnt so like me and kevin got in a huge fight over that and how he hurt me and now everything is all fucked up
everytime i find a guy it just sux.
and my friend is moving tu maine which is hard enough tu deal with cuz i liked him he was awesome and he made me laugh and smile but now i wont be able tu..... whutevah..... bull shit.......ugh tuday sux it was susposed tu be sunny and warm and its the opposite.. damnit. then i gotta work 2night from 3-10 and 2morrow i have my saturday detetion and then work 3-10 so its kinda good. but yea ill keep ya updated and tell u if anything good happend.
but i will go back tu marshfield and kill that girl. shes the same girl i faught in 7th grade. but she keeps on starting shit. so shes goin down.
so yea.. im a little pissed.
so yea well i g2g and do my hw....

ill write abck later! I love u all.......

♥::*mel*Nog*::





p.s. im sorry kevin, but u dont kno how much it sux tu wanna hurt sumone
so yea think about it cuz i dont wanna lose u
ur just the greatest.... <3333333

Date:	2005-02-09 18:22
Subject:	hey
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	"over" u dont need tu kno who sings it!

yea i havent wrote in a long time b/c i am so0o0 busy i mean i have myspace and i talk on there mostly and uh... i work 24/7 and i have
drivers ed mon-wed usually and i always get yelled at so i give up on udating this thingy... yea i cant wait untill the 18th! 10 more days.. its gonna be blazed.... lol yea i am sooooo bored no one tu talk tu online and o yea this kid i kno cut his hair! it looks awesome but he looks different.. i miss his long hair... time for a new change... i wanna valentine... but no one loves mee for sure..



anyways i would talk longer but my self has tu take a shower and cook dinna and clean my room then hw this sux....


well love ya leave me comments ppl! imiss them....



XOXOXOXOXOXxoxoxoxoxXOXOXOXOXO.....^_^........... {{mel}} a.k.a melly

Date:	2005-01-28 08:05
Subject:	fuck.....fuck...
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	the used " cut up angels"

yeah i havent wrote in awhile but.. nuthin much went on on january 21st i went tu my friends concert it was awesome untill like...8:30ish.. ppl started there shit with his band and him and being like 7 yr olds and they were 17- 18... it pissed me off alot and i felt bad for my friends band..
its ok cuz on Feb 18th SLG, THE STYLES, AND DRIVIN FETUS are playin at the rec centa.... woohooo i cant wait its gonna rock i hope no one ruins it.
this day sux..... cuz my school has a 2 hour delay so at 9:00 im goin. o well i wanna stay home but hey i'll be home in 4 hours....... so gay.. if u ask me.. i bet like 75% of the kids wont go its a waste.... whutevah... no use than i getta get ready and go tu work @ 4... so so...ick....
well i am gonna leave b/c i am not in a good mood.......fuck....fuck....fuckin school


SNOW SUX... lol


well holla back....
bye ttyl <3{{LYSSA}}<3